Missing her

2 years have passed since mom died. It just doesn't even seem real.

Brian just told me he found a penny on the ground this morning at the gas station. Makes me smile everytime.

There are crazy things floating in my head. Silly questions that I don't know the answers to. Like, I know I had tubes in my ears when I was a baby, but I thought maybe I got them twice. How old was I when I got the chicken pox? The only person who knew those answers is gone. I will never hear the story of how mom's water broke at Grandma Franssen's house when she got up for a second piece of apple pie and I was born the next morning. Or that stern voice a mother has when they use your whole name...REGINA LOUISE! :)

Gavin is in love with the book "Stellaluna". He thinks it is an amazing book. If you haven't read it you need to. Great book about being different but still being friends. I love to hear him say "Stellaluna, or Breckin Stellan", makes me wish he could have really known her. Her loving heart, smile and voice.

My heart is heavy. It aches. There isn't a cure for that. They say time helps, and heals. I am not sure I agree with that, but time makes it hurt a little less.

That is all for now. Love you mom, see you again someday.