I apologize

First of all I need to apologize. I have been a terrible blogger and for that I am sorry. Gavin had a wonderful 1st birthday and we have some cute pictures. I haven't had time to send out thank yous either and I am not sure that I will have time in the future. Boen Schweitzer is adorable and I haven't posted any of those pictures yet either. So instead of continuing writing about the things that I am sorry for not doing let me tell you what has been going on.

Last night we had a meeting with the family (all 8 kids showed up) and mom's hospice nurse. We spoke about what will be happening next. Mom has moved in with Jessie and her family in Milford. She will have 24 hour a day care then and the nurse will start coming out more frequently again. Mom isn't able to eat much as it doesn't stay down long. We all got to ask some questions and also mom shared some of her wishes that a few of us knew but now all of us know. It was emotional at times. It is hard to explain the feelings. We have known that everyday with mom is precious but also you forget that she is...dieing. So while we talked we all realize that the end is nearing. I am trying to make sure that mom knows we will be okay when she is gone, but how do you say that when you are wondering if it will be okay yourself?

Tracy and Lucas are anxious to get back to school. They have been hit by a harsh reality this summer and they just want something 'normal' back in their lives...I can't blame them. We will be spending most free time in Milford with my mom, so if you call don't expect an answer or a call back, right now we are just trying to enjoy the time we have left. I am at work and am a good emailer, so please feel free. I will try to update when I have the emotional energy.

Thank you for the love and prayers, because they are truly what have given mom these last days with us.